When I needed attention.

At six, I sought refuge, a voice yet small,

You claimed I only wanted attention

But Freudian flips, a narrative’s fall.

How dare you, therapist, with judgment cold,

when I needed attention.

You blamed this child for tales untold.

Manipulative, you labeled me then,

You claimed I only wanted attention

A tender soul betrayed back when.

To divide my family, a twisted claim,

when I needed attention.

A six-year-old, lost in your blame.

I could barely speak, yet you accused,

You claimed I only wanted attention

No inquiry was made, and no truth was perused.

Attention, you claimed, my motive dark,

when I needed attention.

A child, seeking love, a soul embarked.

I do not forgive you.

when I needed attention.

You claimed I only wanted attention

When I needed attention

You, State worker, in adolescence’s fragile years,

You claimed I only wanted attention.

You accused me of manipulation, fueled by fears.

How dare you, blind to the child within,

When I needed attention.

No understanding, you gave no effort for healing to begin.

How dare you, so-called professional, at sixteen,

You claimed I only wanted attention.

Showing me resentment where compassion should have been.

To protect the child, you were assigned the task,

When I needed attention.

But blame prevailed, a damning mask.

In the corridors of memory, these echoes persist,

you claimed I only wanted attention.

A tale of professionals, and opportunities missed.

Instead- you attacked me- my innocence froze.

When I needed attention.

Assigned to protect me. Instead-to accuse, to judge, you chose.

I do not forgive you.

When I needed attention,

you claimed I only wanted attention.

When I needed attention,

Doctor, at thirty-something, I came to you,

You claimed I only wanted attention.

Seeking truth, a journey to pursue.

But you declared me screwed, beyond repair,

When I needed attention.

No empathy, no solace, just cold air.

A mother, a wife, a student, employed,

You claimed I only wanted attention.

Yearning for understanding, your words. destroyed.

Attention, you thought, my sole desire,

When I needed attention.

Ignorance cloaked in professional attire.

I do not forgive the ones who failed,

You claimed I only wanted attention.

It still exists, the ignorance that once prevailed.

In their own failure, they stumbled and fell,

When I needed attention.

My forgiveness is withheld, in my heart’s shell.

I do not forgive you.

When I needed attention,

You claimed I only wanted attention.